Halloween!

Once again I’ve celebrated Halloween as it should be, partying with friends and my beloved boyfriend… it was GREAT!

it’s monday and….

I’m in love!

…end of cliché post.

Have a nice day you too!

monday… monday

Cold and quiet monday in Breukelen… having my own time, thinking about the great weekend and enjoying the view from my window, the autumn colors are so pretty!

2.9 and Happy!!

My bday came and pass, I’m now 29 years old and happy again!

The bday celebration was awesome,I’ve  never imagine I could say that about a modest celebration with 3 people in a pub on a week day one day after the real bday, I felt special and so glad to have those 3 ones in my life, quality is away better than quantity!!

It was a cold and rainy wednesday in Holland and this 3 ones give me such a great time, we talked, we laugh, we got drunk (me and Rafa) and I felt like I’m the luckiest person in the world, although I still miss a lot of people, in that night I was feeling complete and couldn’t have been better, for the first time I didn’t spend the night looking at the door or checking my phone waiting for someone to show up or to call me, the ones I wanted there, were there!!

yeah, I’m 2.9, and so happy to be me!

With Cuca, the Crocodile I’ve got from my dear Kal!

Kal, my dear one!

shhhhh….

SILENCIO!!!

A felicidade tem sono leve…

New Beginning

Nothing better than a cake to celebrate whatever it’s to celebrate!

I’m celebrating my new beginning and this is the Banana Cake I baked…

Home made banana cake

One of those days…

So, today is one of those days,  a day when I feel like doing nothing more than watch some silly american trash serie and dream with one of the actors… just like a teenager!

Today is also a day full of questions with no answers, full of new plans that will never come true and full of thoughts about the past, yeah, I know, time wont go back and things wont change if I keep going on this way.

Today, I just wanted to be with one of my best friend on his couch, talking talking and watching the 7 movies he rented, just like the old times!

Summer days…

2 Summer days in Leiden, with good brazilian friends, good food, good drinks, good time at the beach!

First day, Brazilian Food cooked by Rafinha!

After some good food… DRIIIINKS!

Second day – Sunny day at the beach!

Aaaaand the dinner was home made SUSHI!

Yeah, I’ve had great days with this girls, feels like home!

So…

19:44 – Monday – REALLY?

I didn’t even knew which day is today, naked on bed alone all day, with shadows off, to be classic I should have cigarettes and bottles of Gin… hahaha

almost 48 hours awake, going insane with no drugs at all, isn’t that weird?

No, in my case is just another Insomnia season, I should use this awake time to “work”, to make something that is actually useful, but nah… not really, I’m more into dig shit online and just be melancholic, what a DRAMA QUEEN, yeah yeah and so what? Who cares? Really? Who fucking care???

I saw the day rising chating on skype with this new guy, who can easily be my next disaster…and now I’m just waiting to talk to him again and again hahah, there is nothing going on, but he makes fun of my fucking personal hell and I do laugh with him is something like “yeah, I’m fucked but who cares, NEEEEEEEEEXT”

Saudade

“Saudade

Saudade é solidão acompanhada,
é quando o amor ainda não foi embora,
mas o amado já…

Saudade é amar um passado que ainda não passou,
é recusar um presente que nos machuca,
é não ver o futuro que nos convida…

Saudade é sentir que existe o que não existe mais…

Saudade é o inferno dos que perderam,
é a dor dos que ficaram para trás,
é o gosto de morte na boca dos que continuam…

Só uma pessoa no mundo deseja sentir saudade:
aquela que nunca amou.

E esse é o maior dos sofrimentos:
não ter de quem sentir saudades,
passar pela vida e não viver.

O maior dos sofrimentos é nunca ter sofrido.”

Pablo Neruda